I went to my first White Tantric Yoga event on Saturday. It is a day-long kundalini yoga event where you do partner meditations. Despite the use of the term “tantra,” there is nothing sexual about it. (While it is encouraged to have men facing women for the rows of partners, anyone, male or female, can play the energetic role of the male or female.) The purpose of doing White Tantric Yoga, we are told, is to cleanse the aura and release karma.
I was a bit concerned about doing a day long kundalini yoga event. I had heard horror stories of people having to hold their arms up for hour-long meditations at White Tantra. But I was lucky – this event was relatively “gentle,” with the longest meditations being 31 minutes, with lots of breaks. I didn’t have much problem at all stamina-wise, though my partner struggled a bit. I wonder if it’s because the kundalini yoga I was taught in Los Angeles was more strenuous than how it is taught in Austin. I’m just used to long kundalini yoga meditations! So I made it through the day with flying colors and felt pretty darn good at the end of it. I didn’t have an epiphany or religious experience, but I did feel lighter.
I had not experienced a real “class” with Yogi Bhajan, as I had taken up kundalini yoga after his death. In White Tantric Yoga, they show Yogi Bhajan teaching (a recording, obviously), on a large video screen. He is a bit of a trip. I could tell he had very intense energy and was quite the character. Sometimes he was very humorous. Overall, I liked him and enjoyed his presentations, even when he was a bit “out there.”
This is where it gets a bit weird. The night after I had very strange dreams. This is where it may sound a little “woo-woo” but I swear Yogi Bhajan’s spirit came to me while I was sleeping. I wish I could say this was a good thing, but honestly, his energy felt too strong, almost like he was trying to penetrate my aura in a manipulative way. There were also evil spirits hanging around in my dream, and I called upon Archangel Michael to clear them for me. When I woke up, I felt like the spirit of Yogi Bhajan was trying to energetically connect with those who had taken the workshop, but that this type of beyond-the-grave connection was really not for me.
Now…this may all sound a little strange. But I really do think Yogi Bhajan tries to connect with students of kundalini yogi from the other side. I know that some teachers even claim to channel him. There’s also a form of meditation, called “tratakam,” where you stare at a picture of a guru, and this practice has been used in kundalini yoga with Yogi Bhajan’s picture. People definitely connect with his energy. You can even read comments on the Internet where people claim to be really uplifted by Yogi Bhajan’s spiritual energy. (Scroll to the comments at the bottom of this story to see some examples.) Some people really think he was the real deal.
Here’s my honest opinion. I love kundalini yoga, and I think what Yogi Bhajan did in bringing kundalini yoga to the world was a wonderful thing. But I don’t think Yogi Bhajan is totally from the light. In fact, I think he’s a bit of an imp. An imp is a mischievous spirit, like a fairy, that can be bad but not totally evil. A rascal. In some respects, I see Yogi Bhajan as a divinely-inspired devil. Someone who is doing the work of God but going about it through a bit of a paradoxically dark path sometimes. So I don’t think Yogi Bhajan’s intentions were always good, and I totally got a sense of manipulation from his energy in my dream.
Now. I don’t take well to that kind of manipulative, pushy energy. It does not work for me, and I don’t see that sort of “strong” energy as being spiritually inspiring to me personally. So my response to Yogi Bhajan’s energetic pushing was, “Thanks, but no thanks.” If I’m letting any energy in from another being, it’s only energy from the highest source, aka God, the Holy Spirit, or the Christ energy.
Other folks really get their groove on with Yogi Bhajan’s energy. Some people want to have someone on the outside directing them forcefully. So if they choose to make him (or anyone else) their personal guru, and it works for them, I don’t have a problem with it. I have had quite a few Sikh teachers who learned from Yogi Bhajan who are filled with love, light and happiness. He did something right. (You might want to read a blog post of mine from back in 2007 where I talk about how sometimes good things have to come through egotistical gurus.)
I realize there has been a lot of controversy over the years about Yogi Bhajan. Time magazine actually has an article online from back in 1977 that talks about Yogi Bhajan’s controversies. For example, he was known to order people to marry people they didn’t even know. I actually knew a woman who had undergone a “forced marriage” pushed by Yogi Bhajan – her husband ended up beating her. Not getting much sympathy from her spiritual community, she left him and the kundalini yoga for good. That’s a shame, but that kind of stuff did happen. Even years after his death, critics of Yogi Bhajan are still out there – there’s an entire website devoted to bashing Yogi Bhajan and his “tantric yoga.”
Here’s my thing. I didn’t know Yogi Bhajan. I don’t know what stories are true or exaggerated. I can state for a fact that I would have never lasted a month at any residential ashram where I would have been required to get up at 3 am, take cold showers, and follow a very strict regimen. Some folks who did do that are now angry that they did. Well, my feeling is, if you let yourself get too sucked up into any organization, you are bound to be disillusioned. Heck, the amount of drama at my old improv theater was ridiculous. People are human, and you put people into a closed community and you are bound to have problems. And giving your power away to any guru, no matter how well-meaning he might be, is also probably not the best idea. Maybe your guru really honestly believes that 3 am cold showers are good for you – and wants the best for you – but you hate it, do it anyway, and later feel resentful that you were “forced” to do it. But other people might have really loved it, and those people are carrying on that tradition today.
So I don’t feel I can fully judge Yogi Bhajan. I’m sure there’s some truth to the bad stories about him, and I definitely feel from his energy that he must have manipulated and pushed people – but so many people also felt like he transformed their lives. He wasn’t all bad, and he did a lot of good. All I know is, I feel I get a lot from my kundalini yoga practice.
The important takeaway here is you have the choice as to whether you want to fully connect with a guru on an energetic level. I feel we should be very careful and judicious when allowing any disembodied spirit into our energy fields. My personal choice is to limit access to only the highest energies, i.e., not human energies, but divine energies. Some folks will want to work with Yogi Bhajan’s energy. If you do that willingly, and feel you are benefiting from it, great. But don’t feel you have to give your power away to any guru, including gurus beyond the grave. If you allow him in, remember, you chose to let him in, and you can also ask him to leave when you feel you are done.
So should you go to White Tantric Yoga if you are concerned about opening yourself up to outside forces? I think as long as you are clear on your intentions then you should be OK. Ultimately, when you are chanting mantras such as “Wahe Guru” you are connecting with God. Chanting and meditation are simply tools. You can choose to use your meditation to connect you more with God. Or you could choose to connect with a guru. But it’s your choice. Being conscious and setting a clear intention is the key.
Postscript: I feel pretty good two days after my White Tantric Yoga. I feel clear and happy. It was totally worth it to me. I would probably go again, and if Yogi Bhajan tried to interrupt my sleep next time, I would tell him nicely, thank you for your concern, but I’m really OK on my path and don’t need that much hand-holding. I’m connected to the Great Guru in the Sky! Sat Nam!
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